Do you see yourself as a leader?

Hell no. I think of leadership as having the strength, courage and vision to lead a team and importantly, to get the best out of them. I get on well enough with people, but I’m not good at ordering and directing them. I lack the courage of my convictions, I doubt myself, I don’t like to offend people and I can easily be taken advantage of. I am also prone to emotional outbursts due to my ADHD, which makes working with people difficult. Hardly the ingredients of a great leader. That said, I’ve seen many leaders in business and education who were no better than me, so maybe I am putting myself down. What I know is that I tried and failed many times to secure senior leadership roles in my career. I was a good middle leader I think, but I never displayed enough of what it takes to lead at senior levels in the modern educational environment. When they write about leadership, they describe qualities such as vision, empathy, sense of humour and positivity. What they actually wanted when I applied for Headship training was mean, authoritarian, ball breakers. Maybe good leadership is having a laugh when you’re breaking someone’s balls. In any case, I never became a senior leader. What I became was a lone advocate of my own beliefs. I built a website which offered free advice to teachers and it became so successful that I built a consultancy career from it. At its height, it was one of the leading sites for art education advice in the world. That’s not bad. Not bad at all. And maybe, just maybe, being a leader isn’t everything it’s cracked up to be. Maybe leading yourself is all you need to be.

My website as it looked in 2005

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